Moving Through the Monkey Mind

I’ve noticed the weirdest thing. I “organize” during meditation. I’m making to-do lists and checking things off. I’m thinking through the intricacies and little details of my life. I’m remembering people I have to call and things I have to get done.

And I’m supposedly meditating.

And I’m letting it be okay.

I find myself lost down a rabbit hole of tasks and responsibilities, not sure how I got there. I pull myself back to my breath. I hear myself reminding myself of something I need to not forget, and trust that somehow I’ll think of it later and pull myself back to my breath. (Although sometimes I meditate with a pad and pen next to me, so that I can jot down the tasks running through my brain so that I can pull myself back to my breath.)

I feel myself overcome with the lists of errands and phone calls and chores, and I take a deep breath, trust the universe will somehow remind me later, and pull myself back to my breath.

I don’t organize as much when I’m not deep in meditation. I’m not sure if it’s my mind showing me how frenetically I’m going, or if I have too many details I’m trying to take care of, or if it means nothing.

I just know that I organize during my meditation practice, and when I notice myself doing so, I try to smile, take a breath, and dive back in.


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About the Author | Lisa Kohn

Lisa Kohn is the author of a memoir, To the Moon and Back, due out September 18, 2018, that chronicles her childhood – growing up in the East Village of New York City in the 1970s and in the Unification Church (the Moonies). Lisa writes of her recovery from the emotional abuse and abandonment she faced, and her now life of hope as a thriving and happy mom, wife, and leadership consultant and coach. You can read more at her website,, where you can also download the first chapter of her book.

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