This Man Was My Dad

He was the one I ran to, I trusted, he was supposed to protect me, I loved him unconditionally, he was also the man that molested me. I was so angry, fearful, betrayed, sad, I felt a piece of me missing. Now, I have faced him, testified in court, lost, faced him at his own house, he hurt the ones I love the most, I empowered the ones around me to speak out, and now I pity him and forgive him. This man was my dad.

It was the hardest thing I ever did was tell my mom he molested me and abused me for years. I remember my inner voice screaming to just say it! When I said it out loud I felt naked. That secret kept me a slave believing he had power of me. It felt so strange not to carry that burden on my back any more. I had been living a lie for so long I felt lost. I didn’t know who I was any more. I wasn’t the lie any more, so who was I? My story leaked out and more girls came out. It broke my heart because these were the people I loved the most. But I freed them too. It is my most proud accomplishment in my life thus far. I only wish that one day they will be able to be at complete peace with themselves again and not let the past haunt them any more.

I am free now. I took back everything he tried to take away from me. It was a long journey to get where I am now. I have learned to accept that it is ok to miss my father figure. I have learned that it is ok that I still love him. It is freeing to know that I don’t hold in all that toxic hate and anger. I forgave him because I love me. I love myself unconditionally and I only deserve the best and to be a whole person.

“When there are no enemies within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you”

-African Proverb

About the Author | Anonymous

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  • Although my details are different, I really resonate with this story. It’s so hard to tell the truth! There’s no way to express the magnitude of emotions in that process. Congratulations to you for being so brave, for freeing others, and coming to terms with your emotions.