Love at the Threshold and Beyond
I stand at the threshold
carrying the weight of holding on to a love gone wrong
possibly just wrongly interpreted,
But we’ll never know till we really let go.
Standing here with my insides shaking
I decide to finally lay this marriage down to rest.
At this threshold
I lay down the chains that bind us by duty, fear, and comfort.
At this threshold
I lay down this project of prying hearts open
While ignoring my own heart’s desires.
At this threshold
I lay down all my demands of you,
All the pushing of you,
All the convincing of you,
And all of the efforting that I deemed that love required.
I lay down all of my judgments and my blame.
I lay down my fears and my grief of letting go of a dream I thought I wanted,
And as I prepare to cross this threshold
I take in sight the vision of the Great Eastern Sun
The direction of Spirit’s path,
And although the path isn’t quite clear, I trust it is there.
I trust that in this fall
I will be caught by God’s grace.
I prepare to take the most frightening step.
The next one,
This step where my boat is cut from its moors
and I’m left to drift away at sea
Venturing into the Great Unknown,
Where dreams that I may never have conceived are born.
Darkness surrounds.
I find that the lighthouse is within.
Beyond this threshold lies freedom,
Crossing this threshold I will find love,
Love not dressed in illusion.
Love after love.
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