How a Harvard Grad who Hated Her Job Started a Crazy Wild Love Movement

I was 22.

Like many other 22 year olds, I had just gotten out of college with excitement and ambition. I had majored in “Management” even though I found it a bore, but I thought at least it’d be a safe job and could buy me the type of lifestyle I was looking for. Essentially: drinking and partying.

So I moved up to Boston which was the first big city I’d lived in, bright eyed and bushy tailed, got a job working in finance for $32K which seemed like a shitload of money at the time, and “kinda sorta” broke up with my four year college boyfriend convinced that there must be bigger and better out there.

This was a lot of fun, for a while.

I partied like I was still in college. My job was easy enough, so my coworkers and I went out for happy hour most nights, I had enough money to buy clothes I want, live in an okay apartment and dated lots of new guys seeing who might be “the one”.

And in the background, I still had my ex there just in case. Well, I think we both did for each other. When you’re with someone for so long, and they’re your first love, it’s hard to fully let go. And even harder to fully come back together. So we did that dance for a while.

About a year or so into this life…shit got real.

In 2008 the great recession hit. Suddenly my comfy cozy finance job didn’t feel so comfy cozy anymore.

Many of my friends and coworkers got laid off and it got me thinking, “Wow, if this isn’t even a safe job, and it’s incredibly boring to me, why am I doing it?”

At that point in my life I realized I wanted something more. Working in a job I hated was no longer okay to me, drinking most nights of the week and binge eating was making me feel like crap all the time and I wanted to be in a real relationship that was satisfying and fulfilling.

Plus, I spent all my time avoiding being alone and keeping busy which left me totally burnt out and depleted.

At the time, I had no idea that many of these problems stemmed from a deep lack of self-love and inner self-worth.

Around this time I made some major changes. First, a friend of mine ignited a deep passion for me around spirituality when she introduced me to Wayne Dyer audios. I listened to them nonstop for a few weeks straight. Things started looking differently to me and I found myself in a brighter, more optimistic world.

I could do and create anything I wanted? Wait what??

So I did.

I enrolled in a Master’s program at Harvard University to study Sustainability, which I felt incredibly passionate about. I quit the job I hated. I finally got some distance and took time healing the wound from my first love. And eventually, when I finished my Harvard thesis, I moved to Hawaii for 4 months.

That’s when everything started to change for me. I spent four amazing (and difficult) months working on a farm in Hawaii where I learned to practice self-love and manifesting the life I wanted to create.

What did I want to do with my life?
What kind of person did I want to be?
What do I love to do? In work and in play?
How can I spend more time doing those things that I love?
What makes me come alive?
How can I say no more often?
How can I say yes more often?

After four months, I moved from Hawaii to Portland, Oregon where I wanted to get a job in the sustainable food industry trailing on my degree from Harvard.

Long story short, that job didn’t work out and I was left again wondering what I wanted to do. But on a positive note, I did meet my now husband while living in Portland.

When I met him and eventually quit my new job (which was a terribly abusive environment) he encouraged me to start my own business, which may have been the most terrifying thing I’ve ever done.

But it got me thinking, if I could do whatever I wanted, even if it had nothing to do with my degrees, what would I do?

And I realized that I loved psychology and spirituality and talking to people. I wanted to learn how to live my best life and to help others do the same. And I also realized that for a long time I struggled with a lack of self-love disguised as partying too much, binge eating, serial dating, hating my job, etc.

That’s when the idea of Crazy Wild Love popped into my head like a light bulb.

OMG! I could help other women (or people) just like me to get over some of these issues and change the beliefs they have about themselves and what’s possible!

WOW! What a concept!

I think that Crazy Wild Love is different for each and every one of us. To me, it means living a life filled with love and freedom where I can create anything I want in my life and help others to realize the same. Where I have the freedom to choose the thoughts I think rather than being conditioned to do so and can step fearlessly into the unknown.

So I launched my website and started taking on coaching clients. Believe me, this didn’t happen overnight.

My vision is to have every woman proudly sporting a Crazy Wild Love bracelet as a symbol of self-love, inspiration and empowerment. I want there to be a movement of women who believe in themselves and come alive.

So I urge you to define what a life of Crazy Wild Love means to you?

It will change everything.

Alexis Meads