Coming Out Of The Closet

Yes, I have come out of the closet. The spiritual closet.

I am going to tell you the truth about my own spiritual awakening, but first you must know that I have been on the path for enlightenment since I was five years old. I knew then and have always known. Growing up in a Sikh background in a Westernized Canadian culture, all I wanted to do was to fit in society and be like everyone else.

For as long as I remember, I have had this inner knowing that I was here for a reason. In my early 20s, I had a calling, a purpose, but the whole thing stressed me out. It felt like I was walking around with this huge weight of responsibility on my shoulders. I turned to relationships, career, travel, food, drugs, alcohol, and partying, but none of them quite hit the spot. I tried traveling to the ends of the planet, in search for something that I could not put my finger on. I spent the majority of my life looking outside myself for answers, reaching for anything I could get my hands on to soothe the subtle, aching, longing and deep calling within my soul that told me there was something I was missing; there was something more.

The harder I tried to hold it all together, the more I ignored the callings of my soul. The more I ignored the callings of my soul, the more out of flow with the universe I became. I was pushing, striving, and controlling instead of listening, allowing, and trusting. It took my whole life to come tumbling down for me to realize that what I was searching for was inside me all along.

Through my inner and outer crumbling, I have reconnected within the authentic light within and be with the flow with the universe. Mother Earth is calling forth a new awakening of consciousness in order for us to survive on this magnificent planet we call home.

We all start in spiritual kindergarten, and I am currently finishing spiritual high-school, on my way to spiritual college. Before we can understand graduate school, one must understand the requirements of authentic, lasting spiritual and emotional transformation.

We each have a light within us waiting to guide us home. Our soul purpose is to shine this unique light in a way that only we can and in doing so, we spark something in another and inspire them to do the same.

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About the Author | Deedee Panesar

As I am opening the doors to my spiritual awakening, I have been guided to many spiritual mentors that are helping me to truly accept and embrace my gifts. I hope to inspire and motivate others to recognize their own given gifts and eternal healing light.

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  • Mayra

    Everything you have said is what I have been going thrugh all my life! And searching, Knowing there so much more, feeling lost, some thing missing.